A moment of despair...

It's half past midnight and I'm still awake.. with a dull aching sensation in my right shoulder. It's accompanied by a sharp pain that makes me wince whenever I lift my arm.

I recognise this pain, because 6 years ago I tore my rotator cuff in the opposite shoulder. It's painful, it's horrible, and it takes months to heal. I had to have a lot of physio, wear a shoulder support and it left that arm much weaker than the other.

Next weekend I am supposed to do Majorca 70.3.

I now can't run or swim.

Months and months of hard work.....

I just want to cry.